*depression.*
There I said it. Don't make me say it again because it makes me feel like I want to cry all the time. All I want to do is sleep and hide in my room, which is impossible to do with kids, as you Mommy's well know. I guess having to take care of my kids is a good thing, because if it wasn't for them I WOULD hide in my room all day, and I WOULD sleep for hours on end, and I would just sit and cry my eyes out. Doing all those things do not help the "D" word, it only feeds it, making it into a huge scary "D" monster and we don't need that now do we. Nope!
So I get out of bed each morning and I do the things that need to be done. Yes, I sometimes stay in my pj's all day, my house is usually a mess and I rarely make dinner. But I am out of bed and I am taking care of my kids. They are my rocks. They are my everything! I love them to the very core of my heart and I can not even imagine my life with out them.
So here are a few things they have been up too, that has kept me out of my bed and busy.
We got seven tadpoles from my Mom's house. One accidentally fell down the drain when I was cleaning the cage, and three of them have sense grown legs. Sydney has named them Grandfather, Grandmother, and the babies. When they get big they are going back to my Mom's house to be set free.
We went to Quail Lake over the 4th of July weekend. The kids had a blast digging in the sand, making sand castles and playing in the water!
Brock was super grumpy when ever we had to stop him from eating rocks , or running out into the water.
Later that day Sydney went to do this:
Sydney went to the dentist for the first time. I am kicking myself over and over for not taking her sooner but I just didn't feel like she was ready for it. We found out she has two cavities in her top front teeth. The dentist wants to pull her teeth out(because of possible infection down the road that could cause problems for her heart) but I am bound and determined to save her two front teeth for as long as we can. So after two days of sobbing my eyes out, I have become the "teeth Nazi" and make Sydney brush, floss and rinse her teeth three times a day. We will be going in to fix her teeth on Aug 13th. She has to have them done at the hospital under general anesthesia because her dentist does not think it is safe to do regular sedation in his office because of her heart. I am very nervous about going this route but this was the only route that seemed right to me.
Sydney got this Rex toy for letting me brush her teeth 3 times a day for a week. She is in love with Toy Story lately, so we made a chart up with all the things she needs to do with her teeth. Brush, floss, and rinse, and when she fills the chart up she gets a toy(I have taken away all candy, juice and pop so that is really the only prize I can give her!) When we started the teeth brushing chart it took both Seth and I to hold her down to brush and floss her teeth but gradually she has got the hang of it and only cries a little bit while we do it. Also I have discovered that if we fill the sink with water while we are brushing her teeth and let her play in it, she hardly protest at all while we do her brushing routine.
Brock loves to color and is obsessed with is letters. He can tell me many of the letters and their sounds and finds letters all day long and points them out to me. Reallly he is obsessed!!
This is Sydney waiting for her fist day of swim class.Sydney started swimming lessons yesterday. She has been so excited to learn to swim like a dolphin, and it has been so GREAT for her to get out of the house! Thank you so much Christina for taking Sydney, you are the best in the west(as Sydney would say!)
I am wondering what happened to my smiley little boy, he has been super grumpy lately and this is a face that I see a lot from him. Grumpy with his little lip sticking out. Super cute, but hard to handle all day long!!!Anyway that is what we have been up to the last few weeks. You get a gold star if you stuck through to the end of the this post. If you just looked at the pictures that is fine too. Bye now.
5 comments:
Caralee I know how you feel. I bought some flax seed and put it in my green smoothie. That is supposed to help with depression. Also taking b vitamins. I dont want to have to take medication again but if it gets bad again that may be a possibility. Your an amazing woman and a wonderful mommy. I want to be just like you someday. I love you!!!!
Cute pictures. Sammy loved the tadpoles. So fun! Hope you are feeling better soon! Love ya. Julieo
It can be a tricky road because sometimes you feel like you're going crazy and are depressed or frustrated all the time taking care of the kids, and other times you feel like they're your greatest joy. I know what you're going through, friend.
This pregnancy has been my most difficult, and I find myself wanting to hide away and rest or sleep much of the time. I don't feel in control of my body or my emotions, and I just want to scream aloud! Thank heavens for date nights and girls night out that give me a little sanity.
Oh man I feel for you about the whole dentist thing. Ashton had to be sedated twice to have his teeth worked on. He is finally going to just have them done in the dental office with laughing gas. The assistant that will be with him is an EMT, so at the least the dentist feels a little better with that. Hope all goes well for her.
Caralee, I reallyknow where you're coming from. I've been there. I hope that this stage in your life (the sad times) will come to an end soon. Hang in there! You are a beautiful woman and a wonderful Mother. I can't believe how fast your kiddos are growing!
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